Hand. Cannot. Erase.
by Steven Wilson

If you have listened to this album once or twice.... you need to listen to it maybe 5 more times in order to get it! It will grow on you I promise!! This is probably the Saddest album I've heard in my life. I have. to say it's my Top 3 albums of all time....

Like I said in the review on "The Raven", I've only started listening to SW's music 4 months ago. This is the second SW solo album I bought after "The Raven". I can tell you my first impression on the album wasn't as great as his other works like "The Raven" and "Fear of a blank planet", I found the first few tracks are too "Poppy" for my likings, the 2nd half of the album was more enjoyable than the first half. However, after giving it a few more listen, this album has become my favourite prog-rock concept album of ALL TIME, high above Dark Side of the Moon, and I'll tell you why.

To be able to fully appreciate this album, you need to know the concept behind and read the fictional story that SW wrote for the album booklet. I'm sure many of us who bought the album know it's inspired by the real-life story of Joyce Carol Vincent whose body was found in her apartment in London after she's been dead for nearly 3 years. Next to her body were wrapped presents to her family that never got delivered. People wondered how come no one missed her in 3yrs? This album is about urban alienation, and the state-of-mind of a deeply depressed woman who chose to cut herself off from her family, friends and the society eventually.

This album actually has a lot more heart & depth compared to "The Raven". Even though The "Raven" successfully emulated the 70's prog rock sound with tight drumming from Marco, Scorching guitar solo from Guthrie Govan, to me it's more of a Tribute Album to King Crimson/Genesis/Jethro Tull. It's pleasant/euphoric to listen to, but you wouldn't think much about it after.

Versus Hand Cannot Erase, I feel my stomach churned every time I listened to it. Adam Holzman's keyboard work is definitely the highlight of this album. I could hear the emotion pouring out of every key he pressed. The flow of the album is my favourite, each track is carefully placed in order, it's like reading the diaries of the main character and you could feel her emotional state each step of the way. It is meant to be listened from the beginning to the end to get the full picture.

Track List and my own interpretation:
1. First Regret - It starts off with Adam Holzman's gloomy keyboard sound and SW's brooding soundscape. It's calling for your attention.

2. 3 Year Older - It's your typical pop rock song, it gives you the first glimpse of the main character's state-of-mind. She's starting to relate to someone who she once knew before... someone who disappeared from her life and she didn't understand why... but now she does..."I can feel you more than you really know.... I can love you more than I'll ever show"

3. Hand Cannot Erase - This is a stellar pop track! It showcases SW's ability to create different type of music. It expresses the desire of the main character that she just wanted to be left alone. It's something we can all relate to...."Writing lying emails to our friends back home...feeling guilty if we sometimes wanna be alone" "It's not you, forgive me if I find I need more space..." I'm sure we all feel that way sometimes.... some days we just want to be left alone

4. Perfect Life - Pure Electronica piece, one of my favourite tracks. It's the monologue of the main character talking about the foster sister that she once had. She's 3 years older and she disappeared from the main character's life. Now we know the track "3 Year Older" is about that long lost friend

5. Routine - This is one of the saddest songs I've heard in my life. It has nothing to do with the story of this album. It's more like a side story about a woman's grief after the lost her children. She had to maintain her daily routine in order to keep sane. The highlight was Guthrie Govan's guitar solo and Ninet's heart-wrenching vocal. I've listened to this song many times, and I cried every time when I heard the line "Don't ever let go.... try to let go....", it's a struggle everyday.... you know you need to move on, but when is it OK to move on?

6. Home Invasion - It's one of the heaviest tracks on this album, it has some Metal riffs. This song talks about the social detachment people have due to Internet and Social Media. Technology brings us closer and further at the same time. We get on line, we know everything that's happening around the world at the comfort of our own home. People don't even interact with each other any more because Texting/Tweeting/Facebooking is easier...everyone has a different visage on the internet, you can be anything, anyone you want...

7. Regret #9 - This one is an instrumental track showcasing each members' musicianship. The opening sounds very RUSH. If you didn't know, you would think you are listening to Rush. This is one of the best and heavier tracks of the album.

8. Transience - Another favourite track of mine. This is the most melodic track in the album. I could definitely hear the influence of Pink Floyd especially the harmonies. It's very folksy & melodic, you just want to sing along. It's simply beautiful.

9. Ancestral - This is probably the best track in the album. It's a 13-min long journey packed with tons of goodies including SW's lush and brooding guitar sound and haunting vocal; Adam's magical keyboard/organ works and Guthrie's sky-scorching guitar solo. Definitely cannot be missed.

10. Happy Returns - This is definitely THE saddest song I've ever heard in my life. I thought there's no song that can top the sadness of 'Routine", but this song did it. I have to say the first 20 times when I heard this song, I just find it very sad, but it never got me to the point that I had to weep uncontrollably like 'Routine". I only truly experienced how sad this song actually is when I saw it performed live at the SW's concert. The song is a letter she wrote to her brother after she cut herself off from her family for years. She tried putting up a strong front so people would think she's ok, but she's actually very broken. It almost seemed like it's her way of crying for help, she's in the verge of breaking down. Her train-of-thoughts were very scattered... one moment she expressed her helplessness "I feel like I'm falling once again... but there's no one left to catch me..." Another moment she's talking about her financial trouble and suddenly asked if her nieces & nephews remember her... "I've got trouble with the bills... do the kids remember me?... I got gifts for them and for you... and sorrow.... but I'm feeling kinda drowsy now... so I'll finish this tomorrow..." Even though the song never implied the fate of the character, but we all know those gifts never got delivered and she's never waking up again. (Joyce Carol Vincent died in her apartment with undelivered wrapped presents around her.) I lose it every time when I thought about how she died alone and no one missed her for years.......

11. Accident Here One - It's all Adam Holzman's emotional keyboard work!! I'm a true fan of him now after seeing him performed this album live. I saw big guys weeping at the concert when Adam concluded the show with this gloomy piece of art.

I have to say there's no other albums I've listened to in my life made me feel that touched and emotional. This is an essential collection for music fans across all genres... not just Pop Rock and Prog Rock fans... but music fans with good ears in general. It is sad... but like Steven Wilson said "I find sad music uplifting!". This album is truly a masterpiece!

From Yoooreds 03/01/2015 08:21 | #135840 | TOP COMMENT Vote up your preferred comments and the comments with the most votes will be flagged.

Formally released on 2nd March, this album is work of genius, from the golden boy of modern Prog rock. I suspect that this will. E my album of 2015. Time will tell

10/10. Outstanding

From LedZep TOP 100 COMMENTER 12/17/2016 23:10 | #180391 | TOP COMMENT Vote up your preferred comments and the comments with the most votes will be flagged.

Really the modern music that should be praised by the media, not the brain killing pop rap. I'm constantly discovering great new music like SW that could be labeled anti-mainstream, and I am sad because in 50 years no one will know about good music from our generation...

Very great album!!! Maybe the best of the year, surely one of the best of 21st century. Routine is masterpiece. Ancestral, even with its 13 mins, is pleasant to listen. Wilson is a genius

From jhuik TOP 100 COMMENTER 04/04/2015 00:35 | #138757

Wilson just keeps putting out great music. This might be one of the brightest, best things he's done yet.